MCS, the future does in fact, freak me out.
I feel like I am stuck…
I want to go out, live, have good and bad times somewhere new. I can’t stay in this place much longer…I feel like I am going crazy. I have an amazing opportunity this summer, I am just too scared to go for it. It sounds insane but, I am actually afraid of changing my story. I am just so used to it…I know I need a change.
I could just do it, ya know. Just up and disappear and start somewhere new. It sounds to good to be true though. I have a way to just leave..I am just scared of what I might miss while I am gone. I wouldn’t be gone forever or anything just for a while. I need to start living my life before it’s too late. I don’t want to live a life of regrets, and right now I have one, and it is literally eating away at me. I don’t know what to do.
This is an extremely long stupid rant, I am sorry for whomever’s time was just wasted by reading this. I just don’t know where else to do it.
Have to go, lots to think about.
I thought of all the things I’d like to say. Cramped up and couldn’t write a word all day. I just waited for my world to fall apart. Thats why I’ll never finish anything I start.
—Motion City Soundtrack: Can’t Finish What You Started (via chloeclaire)
The scene is about 10:00 in the a.m..I go downstairs to see if John is awake. He isn’t so I wake him up.
Me: John, coffee.
John: Give me a minute, I have to wait for my boner too go away.
Boners, creating problems errywhere, erryday!